reluctance

Temporarily going through a state of intentional sluggishness. Do not feel like. Acting, taking decisions or positions. Procrastinating a little longer before setting off. Languidly letting go, lazily hanging around in the limbo of hesitation. Being wary of passions or getting involved. Feeling inadequate or perplexed over what to do. Shrugging off responsibilities, like dust off the bedside cabinet. Sneaking around and hiding. From people, from the world, from ourselves. Wrapping up secretly in a delicate cocoon of reserve and concealment. Timidly watching what is going on around us, preferring silence to empty words. Stopping trying to unravel the knots of a complex existence, accepting its inextricable tangles. Basking in the torpor of carelessness, of involuntary disorder. Burying oneself in the build-up of the leftovers of daily life. Letting things go, not worrying. At times, surrendering to neglect, to untidiness, bordering on sloppiness. Cutting your own clothes and hair, preferring the wrong and bad side of things.
Research: Sakina Bezzaz for Spring/Summer 2023 season.